so far from you

I have lost control of my emotions
shutting down
only if I could turn back time
collapsed eclipsing thoughts drive me insane
wondering what it might have been like
so far from you
I look for answers that can't be found
I look inside myself and still can't find them
I have let my heart wonder only to be broken,
kicked to my knees
I wonder will I find what I seek or is it just lost or forgotten
a bitter thought
broke memories are all I find
is it in front of me hidden in a code
the only thing that I have left are the memories